i hear a laugh..and what follows is a smile
but a glance is enough to tell me its all a lie..
the smile will die down..and the dead eyes will show
and for the hundreth time.. i promise i will make them glow..
but why dont you tell me..what is it that you are going through
no matter how much you fake .. i knw what is false..and what is true…
why do you seal yourself? why hide your fears?
those eyes come and tell me.. you shed silent tears…
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, There’s so much to talk
Look down and you will see, Covered in blood, I walk
Bodies everywhere…….with their breathing stopped
What good did it do? Why were they slaughtered and robbed?
“Killed in the name of religion”, they say
And yes………… murderers roam free today……………..
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, There’s so much to ask
Clear my doubts….shed your mask
Do you, God, belong to any religion? Do you have any caste?
Do you practice different rituals? Do you also have to fast?
Does it matter to you, that we eat goats but now cows?
That we feed on chickens… but pigs we renounce?
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, save me from here
I am your child after all, I am your heir
When I come to you God, will you ask me how I came?
Was I buried or fed…………. or was I burnt in flames?
Will I be asked how good I have been?
Or will you want to know….how many enemies I have fleeced?
Yes…I thought he was untouchable, but help…I did give
Will you question me about all this, when I come to you?
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, tell me you exist
Whom else do I ask? Not sure is the priest
If you are there…..make the killings stop
Punish those who murdered…punish those who robbed
And If you are not there…..make the world aware
At least someone will stop killing…. On how to offer you prayer
I’m aware, our paths head different ways
Silently I agree to this unappealing phase
But listen to my silence, it clearly says
I’ll be with you…..always
Life without you, will be a barren land
Sad and unhappy, it will lack elan
Whenever you’ll call me, I’ll hold your hand
& we’ll walk together, in the sand
There’ll be times, we’ll say “Good Bye”
But,I’ll come back to you, Yes..I”try
We might never see each other,I don’t deny
But we’ll meet in my memories, just you and I
Those moments when we’ll meet, maybe very few
But if you’ll need me, my life I shall give
Destiny may make us part, but do believe
Distances don’t matter, ‘cos I will never leave
Hope is the hat rack I hang my dreams upon
Its the force in me which urges me to move on
If you believe in God as you say you do
You should believe in yourself to get you through
‘cos your God is not in that statue you bow to
Your God resides in you and tells you what to do
Your God is in that mother, who gave you birth
Your God is within yourself its just not proved
Listen to God once he’ll tell you to try
He will carry you through, till you die
He’ll show you that star you think you cannot reach
But If you have faith in him, you will do what he’ll preach
He says,”Theres nothing in this world you can’t do
Just have hopes my dear, it will take you through”
One day my mother said to me
“Always give back what you take
And then true happiness you will see
When lives happier you will make”
Now my mother has never been wrong
I believe in every word she says
So I decided it wont be long
Till to everyone, around me, I’ll repay
I decided I’ll start with my mother
And thats the biggest mistake I made
For I know its very hard to repay her
And with this my hopes began to fade
How can I ever repay
The love that resides in those eyes
The words of hers which made many a days
Those values which made me nice
That boundless love of her caring hand
Which she lovingly places on my head
Its no less than a magic wand
She makes sure all my troubles are dead
She cared for me before I was born
She’s been with me always
She cleared my paths of all the thorns
A new life she gave me and her heart to stay
She brought me to Earth
She made me alive
She gave me relations
Shared happiness and with me she cried
She gave me the most wonderful moments
So that I could be happy when I am alone
Its just uncountable, the list of her lents
& I am in no position to repay this loan
(To be Continued… )
…Continued from “My mothers’ loan”
“Don’t think of my love as a loan to you
It hurts me deeply if you think so
Love is not just take and give
Its more about sharing. This – you should know”
“If you think you can never repay me
I think the same about you
‘Cos you have given me a lot you see
You have given me your heart, your soul
I may have given you a new life
I may have given you relations
But you gave me a better life
My reason to live was your creation
I can never thank you for what you gave
Can never thank you for all that laughter
You changed my life, my world for me
You transformed me from a woman to a mother
You gave me the most divine position in the universe
You made me feel the greatest person on this Earth
You changed my very identity..You are my creator
While I gave birth to a daughter..You gave birth to a mother”
It was autumn and the weather was clear
I turned around and found you near
I sensed you were close all year
Even when the weather changed its color
While I was drowning myself in the rain
You were there to feel my pain
As far as I can remember
You have been with me forever
In crowd you were standing next to me
You gave me company in my loneliness
You held my hand, while I cried
You were there to share my happiness
When the sun was harsh, the wind was strong
You were with me all day long
I know I can ask anyone you see
The darkest cloud will vouch you were with me
If I recollect all the ways in which you helped me,
This poems’ never going to end
On and ending note, I’ll just say
“Hats off to you”, my friend
Through the lonely walks of life
Where only failures kept me company
I trudged along sad,weary and burdened with grief
Would not have realised if I had died
My whole life made no sense
Until you came, touched me and made me grow
Never gave me a change to complain
You were so perfect
Did not realise what went wrong
You made me trust you, and thats the only thing I complain about
‘cos thats when my world shattered
And I realised, I had died long ago
Things dont always happen as you want them to,
But life is like that…you have to see what you can do
It may seem you are in a worse situation..but still worse could be the tide
Isnt it always that the grass looks greener on the other side?
You cannot stop moving for the fear you will fall
Keep going and you’ll win, you’ll see, you shall
You ne’er learnt to walk right at the first try
So why are you expecting things to change now, tell me why
After all,hope is the hat rack I hand my dreams upon..
Its the force in me which urges me to move on
As darkness creeps in, the crowd subsides
In this holy abode, peace resides
As you are pulled into this serenity
It reveals to you, its mystique beauty
The view hypnotic, you’ll lose reality
Everything comes to a halt, this moment is eternity
Many a decades have passed by this sepulchre
It still stands as one of the histories reminder
It symbolises an epoch of treachery and deceit
Of love and war,of failure and defeat
It speaks of the changing times it has seen
It speaks not about itself, but of people once been
& when the veil of night uncovers its face
It bathes itself in sunlit rays
& amidst the pandemonium of crowd
It still spreads the message of love
