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In nazmo ke ibtidaa ki kya kahani bayan kare
- Where did these words start.. what do I say
ye kisi aaftaab ke saath nahi uthe
- they have not risen with the sun
ye to un aansuon ki mehak se kagaz par utre hai
- they have been penned down under those tears
jisse hum aanchal samajh kar odhe baithe hai
- who i have embraced
abad ki baat hai,hum tabse apne jahan mei rehte hai
- its the story of eternity, i have been living in my world
uss jahan mei.. jahan sab itmaam hai
- my world, that world where everything is perfect
har armaan ko yo peroye rakhte hai khayalon mei
- each and every desire of mine has been threaded in my thoughts
ki din mei azhaan ka koi nishaan nahi hai
- and in no days is there even a hint of sorrow in them
khoye hue hai khud par paane ki chahat dekhiye
- see i am myself lost. but look at my will to succeed
hamare armaano ka jahan hai.. ya jannat sochiye
- is this a world of my dreams, or a heaven you only decide
koshish nahi karte to rooh rukshat ho jaati hai
- if i dont even try to achieve my dreams, my soul gets angry with me (and leaves me)
kishton kishton mei khud khushi ka mazaa humse poochiye
- so many times my soul has been left me that i am dying slowly
Meanings:
aaftaab: sun
abad: eternity
azhaan: sorrow
ibtidaa: commencement/beginning
itmaam: perfection
In nazmo ke ibtidaa ki kya kahani bayan kare
ye kisi aaftaab ke saath nahi uthe
ye to un aansuon ki mehak se kagaz par utre hai
jisse hum aanchal samajh kar odhe baithe hai
abad ki baat hai,hum tabse apne jahan mei rehte hai
uss jahan mei.. jahan sab itmaam hai
har armaan ko yo peroye rakhte hai khayalon mei
ki din mei azhaan ka koi nishaan nahi hai
khoye hue hai khud par paane ki chahat dekhiye
hamare armaano ka jahan hai.. ya jannat sochiye
koshish nahi karte to rooh rukshat ho jaati hai
kishton kishton mei khud khushi ka mazaa humse poochiye
Meanings:
aaftaab: sun
abad: eternity
azhaan: sorrow
ibtidaa: commencement/beginning
itmaam: perfection
Standing near the window, I could feel the sense of abjectness, building up inside me. I was still shivering – half with cold and half with fear. The stretched nerves had become a part of my biological system. The hairs on my hand, stood on end. Why couldn’t I just be like a girl and wax them off? That way, at least they won’t give away my fear.
I looked up. The negro colored clouds were closing in and the falling drops made my welled up tears feel welcomed. Rains in Kerala were beautiful. And maybe they had been the reason, I was finally brought to a psychiatrist. I held on to the wet window bars and felt like I was in a jail. And was it not a Black hole? To be trapped inside yourself to this extent? Where all happiness, laughter, bliss was sucked into some black mass leaving me alone with tears. I looked at the water droplet forming on the bar – with rain around, it became huge and fell – not able to sustain the weight of the growing mass inside it. I let go of the tear globule forming inside me. I did not realise when he came and stood behind me. It was his hand on my shoulder that startled me. I turned around. Even he was crying. “Never give up. Remember, Be a phoenix”, he said.
manzil mile na mile sahi
koshishon mei hi rooh lut jaaye
dekhna ho mera junoon agar
aasmaan se kehdo aur uncha uth jaye
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khoye hue hai khud par paane ki chahat dekhiye
hamare armaano ka jahan hai ya jannat sochiye
koshish nahi karte to rooh rukhsat ho jaati hai
kishton kishton mei khud khushi ka mazaa humse poochiye
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koi tumse pooche agar kaun hun mai..
to kehna, “koi khaas nahi
ek dost hai kaccha pakka sa
ek jhoot hai aadha saccha sa
jajbaaton pe jo parda daal de
ek bahana hai aisa accha sa
isme aur to koi baat nahi
bas ek dost hai..koi khaas nahi”
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rula jaati hai duniya.. par hum haste hai
chalke nahi wo boond, iss koshish mei rehte hai
aankhon mei ashq to abhi bhi thehre hai
par baarish ki boondein jab chand par se behte hai
raat ke aagosh mei, hum tanhayi ko sehte hai
i hear a laugh..and what follows is a smile
but a glance is enough to tell me its all a lie..
the smile will die down..and the dead eyes will show
and for the hundreth time.. i promise i will make them glow..
but why dont you tell me..what is it that you are going through
no matter how much you fake .. i knw what is false..and what is true…
why do you seal yourself? why hide your fears?
those eyes come and tell me.. you shed silent tears…
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, There’s so much to talk
Look down and you will see, Covered in blood, I walk
Bodies everywhere…….with their breathing stopped
What good did it do? Why were they slaughtered and robbed?
“Killed in the name of religion”, they say
And yes………… murderers roam free today……………..
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, There’s so much to ask
Clear my doubts….shed your mask
Do you, God, belong to any religion? Do you have any caste?
Do you practice different rituals? Do you also have to fast?
Does it matter to you, that we eat goats but now cows?
That we feed on chickens… but pigs we renounce?
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, save me from here
I am your child after all, I am your heir
When I come to you God, will you ask me how I came?
Was I buried or fed…………. or was I burnt in flames?
Will I be asked how good I have been?
Or will you want to know….how many enemies I have fleeced?
Yes…I thought he was untouchable, but help…I did give
Will you question me about all this, when I come to you?
God, Are you there? Answer my call
My heart lies bare and my feelings stall
Come down and meet me, tell me you exist
Whom else do I ask? Not sure is the priest
If you are there…..make the killings stop
Punish those who murdered…punish those who robbed
And If you are not there…..make the world aware
At least someone will stop killing…. On how to offer you prayer
I’m aware, our paths head different ways
Silently I agree to this unappealing phase
But listen to my silence, it clearly says
I’ll be with you…..always
Life without you, will be a barren land
Sad and unhappy, it will lack elan
Whenever you’ll call me, I’ll hold your hand
& we’ll walk together, in the sand
There’ll be times, we’ll say “Good Bye”
But,I’ll come back to you, Yes..I”try
We might never see each other,I don’t deny
But we’ll meet in my memories, just you and I
Those moments when we’ll meet, maybe very few
But if you’ll need me, my life I shall give
Destiny may make us part, but do believe
Distances don’t matter, ‘cos I will never leave
I will tell you a tale which is true
A tale of our love, it starts with you, it ends with you
You’re my life’s most precious find
You’re one in a million, you are one of a kind
Come whatever may our hearts are bind
& We’ll work together, through roads that wind
Your smile it hides a million mysteries
Little does it reflect, your moving history
You’re my courage, my comfort, my strength
& We’ll walk together the whole length
I know, for our love, it wont be an easy ride
But we’ll be together, even if it means, turning the tide
– Ameya Mahadeswar
